Today, I am so very tired. I got very little sleep last night, then I woke up with a headache.
Perhaps, it's my body's way of saying, "Sylvia, you better calm down."
Or maybe it's just because I woke up with a headache. Either way, I do need to calm down.
Today, I made myself some relaxation hot tea and sipped it slowly. And you know what? I really do feel relaxed.
So, I am going to run (or maybe I'll drive... yeah, I'll drive) to the store and pick up some more tea.
I've forgotten how good hot tea is...
I remember one evening in 2006, while in school to learn how to be a massage therapist, our instructor brought in a plethora of tea. My classmates and I just had a nice, calming evening. I should've kept up that moment. But, I selfishly went back to coffee...
So, while sipping my tea, I wrote a little more in my book. Which, by the way is going fantastically! I feel like I'm just writing away! What a grand feeling it is to be writing! And about John and me to boot!
Don't worry, when it's published, I'll think of every one of you while I'm spending my millions... ;)
I spoke with some friends today on the phone, got some insight and advice on all the "family" drama that is going on. Yes, I do realize I put family in quotations. I did that because I do not think of these people as my family anymore.
John told me today to just "relax" and "let him take care of it". Ok, John. Have at it. I'm sort of glad too. Frankly, I'm sick of all of it. I am washing my hands of it - ALL. Yea me! I no longer have to worry about it! Which, by the way, also makes me feel relaxed.
So, all in all, aside from the headache I woke up with, it was a wonderful day.
A nice, calm, peaceful day.
I feel like a burden has been lifted and I can continue on with my life. And for the most part, I'm unscathed.
The only thing that sucks about it is that Olivia has lost some of her family. I know that in time, though, this whole thing will be but a distant memory for her. I had to go into her Ipod and delete some numbers and contacts, but we told her last night that we were going to do that anyhow, and she seemed pretty ok with it. So, she too will go on with her life. And now that Olivia will no longer be burdened, I can relax that much more.
I'm going to grab a nice long hot shower, make myself some hot tea and sit down and enjoy the rest of my day...
So, this is me...
A new refreshed me.
And I couldn't feel better about it...